Sudden Attack.
I don't know what happened to me last night.
I was normal that time.
Then suddenly that feeling of being emo came out from nowhere.
I'm not sure whether its because of my sensitiveness or what.
I was really hurt , sad and pissed off.
I really don't know what to do.
When i was trying to calm down myself,
I was searching for a song.
Then i found an old song that i used to listen to it.
It was a sad song.
When i listen to the song , I cried.
I can't stop listening to it and i can't stop crying that time.
Then i started to think ; Why the heck i'm crying ?!
Boys don't cry.
But then,
After i cried , i feel so much better.
And when i talked to you , i'm back to normal.
I'm sorry that i made you worry so much.
I just hope this won't happen again.
I Love You Too , kay
I love you .
posted at [2:46 PM]
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Please , make up your mind .I really in love with you. From the moment when we we're together , until now i still keeping the same feeling towards you. It have never change , and never will .
We have been in this situation before this . And its happening again.
Like before this , I always felt like you going to end our relationship. But at the end , it doesn't. I was really hurt when it happened . But then i still LOVE you like i did .
Please , stop this problem we had.
Please stop lieing to each other.
If i did something wrong , please tell me.
Spit it out to me whatever you feel right now.
I'll be the person who always be here to listen to all your problem.
No need to hide it , because it will just make it worse.
I'm gonna be here, waiting for your decision.
I'll accept whatever your decision is.
But , just don't regret with your own decision.
I just don't want you to suffer anymore.
I want you to know that i always here for you.
If........ just if..
If our relationship are going to end....
If you made the decision to leave me ,
I think I've made my mind that i will not going to be in relationship anymore until the time has come. Don't ask why. Because i'm just too weak of being myself .
I...............
I really love you.
posted at [3:28 AM]
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Help.
I'm so blank right now.
I don't know what should i do.
Is there anything i can do ?Just tell me. No need to hide it.
I'll do anything for it.
I feel like you dont wanna talk to me like we always do .
Like ... i dont know how to say . But its just not like before.
If we have problem , can we just settle it .
posted at [8:33 PM]
Closer To The Edge
SCHOOLS OVER !!!
Finally Its over .
Finally I've achieved one of my target this year.\
But, i still haven't get the sijil .
And here comes a month of holiday.
I hope its not going to be a boring one.
I went out few times already with my friends . Most of it is with Zayd.
I went Mid Valley , KLCC , and Sunway Pyramid .
The reason why is for wasting all my money .
And now i'm seriously broke.
But i will get money from the photography session next week ! ^^
Today (Tues 15/11/10) , I ponteng from school and went Sunway Pyramid with Zayd .
Then we join the girl Sunway Trip , lol .
And im getting better in ice-skating .
.... In all this weeks , I've watched the movies 'TAKERS' , 'YOU AGAIN' , 'RED' and ... 'SKYLINE' !!!! xD
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Owh , about BSMM camp that day ...
Its totally torturing . My whole body got scracthed and pain .
I'M NOT GONNA GO NEXT YEAR CAMP !
I just hope that im gonna get the 'Corporal' rank ..
Errrr , i have massssssiiiivvvvvveeeee problem lately .
Not problem with friends , or close friends , or teachers , or family , or anyone else .
I have problem with own myself !
I don't know why the heck i'm being so sensitive lately -.- ....
I'm being sensitive with everything and everyone , including with my family .
I'm dealing with my own emotion/feeling ..
How stupid is that is .
Sometimes i just feel like stabbing myself .
Urgh , i just hate myself lah . damn it .
Now i try not to care about it , i wanna enjoy my holiday 8D
This Friday got photography session !!! I WANT MONEY FROM IT ! hehe
Next month im starting my shooting course with my dad ^^
Shooting as in airgun and some other gun that i dont know , lol .
Okay , my plan for this holiday is =
- Hangout (as ussual)
- Holiday trip with my family
- Burn all the PMR exercise paper !
- Trying to ask a laptop from my dad for birthday present
- Going to my friends house (my best buddy) :D
- Online 24/7
- Go out to see my girlfreind ^^
- Buy new stuffs
- Save money for spending it all
- And lastly ... PMR results .
......................................Kay , im off now *yawns*
I wanna write longer , but damn sleepy lah .
Nite nite !
posted at [12:09 AM]
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Wonderland.
Gahhh !
STUPID FLU and COUGH !!!
Go away , please !
urgh ...
Well , tomorrow got hangout again !! ^^
woooooooooooooooooh !
And this time wifey are coming =]
I hope this time will be awesome .
I kinda miss girlfie .
I hope tomorrow i can spend time with you.
I love you Sylviaaaa~ :3
Thats for tonight !
Nyte Nyte !
posted at [11:32 PM]
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The Moment To Fight
HAAaaccchhhiiiuuuuu !!!!!! -sneeze-
Gosh , why im having a flu and fever ?! argh .
I hope it will go away as soon as possible .
And i hope my flu is not worse like i had previous , it affected my eyes kay .
ANd uh , the dustbin next to me are full of used tissues edi -.-
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
Hmmm , last week i had a REUNION with my primary school friends .
Its good to see them again after 3 years .
But the worse part is when they all ditched me .
Yea lah , they are like in the same school .
SMK Sunway and SMK Sri Permata . They kinda close .
Well me ! Im from SMK BB !
And im like the ONLY ONE from SK Sungai Way who enter BB during form 1 .
So they all walk among themselve with their gang ..
The only thing we do together i watching movie . We watched 'YOU AGAIN' .
Its a funny movie though xD .
And the STUPID things is ... Theres 14 of us .. And they only bought 11 tickets .
And all 14 of us just simply give the tickets of 11 and went in -.- .
Lucky tak kena tangkap or smthg . Ergh , i dont want to keluar with them anymore lah .
This week only have 2 days of school .
Again , it was really boring .
On Monday we all watched half-way SURROGATE and TRANSFORMER 1 .
Err , im not showing off or smthg .. But my name got called by the teacher during assembly as one of 3 students who are good looking or we called it 'murid contoh' ... -cough cough- xD
Bangga giler masa tu ~!
Then , the Principal ask the students who 100% attendance .
Again , dengan bangga nye i stood up as one of the form 3 students xD
CEYH! Bangga sial xD woot ~!!!
But lucky got no spot check that day , or my reputation will EXPLODE if the pengawas cought me bringing phone to school xD lol .
Then on Tuesday ,
We watched Transformer 2 .....
Nahhh , i watched it 5 times edi on tv , so , nothing special lah .
Hrmmm , tomorrow im going ARENA .
Having futsal with my DUDES .
Well , im not gonna be at home until night lah =/
Because after futsal , i have to go KL sentral wait for my dad finish his working hour ...
Okay , this Sunday got another Hangout i think .
At Sunway Pyramid ... again xD
Lol , i went to Sunway for like every week already .
Well , what to do , no other place to go .
and uhhh ... cant wait for it ^^ .
~PERSONAL STUFF~
Err , i dont know whats wrong with me lately .
Sometime im okay , sometimes not .
Theres something bothering me lately , but im not sure what it is .
And , i miss someone right now =/
Glah , when i listen to our song 'Yellowcard' (which so long i havent listen to it) , it reminds me of the early months we had together . I really really miss it ='/
And i wish it can happen again =/
I still love you kay =]
Kay , i got nothing else to write anymore .
Guess im gonna stop for now ;]
See ya on the next post !
*stryder signing off*
posted at [12:42 AM]
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