Hear Me Now~
This is for the sake of updating :D .
First of all, i'm sorry for everything i did.
I may not be perfect, but i've love you since the very beginning.
I'm sorry that some of my words that i said to you didn't came true.
I...... we. We missed our 1st anniversary. I was kinda down because of it.
But on that day, something happen. For some reason, i feel like my emotion/feeling has grown stronger than before. I barely feel hurt on everything that used to tare my heart out. And again, i'm sorry that we didn't get to celebrate our 23/3 .
I want you to know that i will always love you. I have NEVER lied about it.
No matter how bad the situation is , nothing seems to change that feeling.
Thanks for accepting me back.
This time, i'll try to fix everything up. Even though everything is different now. I realized that we didn't talk much lately like we used to.
I know maybe theres a pain left by everything happened before. I wish i could take it back, but i can't ...
Now you gave me the last chance. I appreciate it a lot , thanks.
I hope i won't screwed up things this time.
But if i do........... i don't know if i can let everything go or not. I don't know if i can be alright without you or not. I really don't want to lose you . But if its really too late, then there is nothing i can do about it. Coz i don't know whats gonna happen tomorrow. The day after tomorrow. Next week.
For now , i want us to be like we used to. Please.
I love you , kay ..
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Next,
Tomorrow Monday , school , again .
I didn't even do or touch any of my homework #gonnadieatschool .
I hope this week gonna be a good one. Don't want a bundle of homework , works , stuffs , cocuriculum , blablablablablabla.
Can't wait for weekends . ICC ! FUCK YEAH !!!! 8D
I hope it's gonna be one hell of a fun day !
Then , the next weekend , a birthday hangout !!
Girlfriend's and KY's birthday ^^
Gonna get my salary soon .
So far , only one thing on my wish list that has been 'fulfilled' xD
Which is StarCraft 2 : Wings Of Liberty !
Next..... i don't know .
I'll use it to buy birthday presents.
Planning to go Mid Valley with Zayd after school. Maybe that time i'll buy the presents.
But i seriously don't know what to buy for them. Maybe..............
errrr ,nvm , i'll keep it as surprise :P .
Gtg now. Gonna have one hell of a school week.
Ciao !
posted at [6:16 PM]
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Sweetheart~
I'm here , to blog about my baby.Ish , i miss you lah , even though we just saw each other yesterday.
I wish to spend more time together with you coz you know , lately we don't really see each other until yesterday at McD :/ .
Anyway , thanks again for the keychain you gave me , i like it a lot.
Oh and the tiny spongebob. ^^
Next wednesday, it will be our 1st Anniversary.
I have no idea what we gonna do on that day and where we should go. I just hope atleast we both can go out somewhere , anywhere.
Hee hee , kay.
i think i'm done :3
I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you Dx
I love you , i miss hugging you , i mive you <3
LOVE YOU, Baby~
posted at [11:30 PM]
Shorty~
This is short post.I'll post about the mcD hangout on the next one ;]
Tonight , i don't know why suddenly i feel emo. And suddenly i feel bad coz i recalled back all the bad things i did to everyone... Maybe sometimes i did something that hurt anyone physically or mentally..... or maybe sometimes i'm being so selfish :/ glehhh!!!! I dunnow why i'm being like this tonight T_T ....
Watched SAW for the first time in my life just now. Damn weyh , blood everywhere xD .... Skin being tore out , head smashed down , slice and dice human body.... o.o ....
Ish lah , i miss you :/
i wanna spend more time with you Dx
Kay , its 3.10am now , im off to bed , damn sleepy.
Nites !
posted at [2:50 AM]
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Envoy From Jupiter~
It's 8.00 AM on 17 March of 2011.
Woke up early this morning with hope that i can go to section 14 McD to hangout with my friends ! Now all i need to do ask for my parents approval . Btw , i only have RM2.75 to spent if i'm going today. First is to pay the public transport from KL Sentral to Asia Jaya. By the time i reached section 14 , my money for sure gonna finish already , shit . But then how am i suppose to go back ? err maybe i'll ask for some money from my friends ? hehehe :P
Now we are back together. I'm sorry for the past mistakes that i've done to you. After this , i'm hoping we will not have the same problems again. If we do , i want us to settle a.s.a.p. kay . Next week , it's gonna our 1st anniversary.... I didn't realize it's gonna be a year already ^^
Anyway , thanks to Zayd , Kent and Pravin for being there when i was down.
Thanks for wanted to listen to my story . Thanks for giving me support.
Thanks a lot brothas/dudes! xD
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Now changing to other story. (don't mind me posting like a news report or something -.-)
Last Friday , a 9.0 magnitude of earthquake hit Japan and created a tsunami... A few days later , their nuclear reactors had leaked one by one , on Monday , their 4th nuclear reactor exploded. Now Japan is like..... exactly the same like in the movie called 'Sinking of Japan' . Never heard of it ? go check on youtube , it's kinda nice movie. Now it feels like the end of the world is coming near weyh .___. .... Well , maybe the prediction about 2012 is true. Just maybe ! We can't predict it , coz it's all God's decision . So i'll just pray that i can live longer ! (Y)
posted at [7:58 AM]
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Fall For You~
It's not pain that i'm having right now .But even worse.
Jealousy has took over my feeling .
Gosh , i need you. I want you.
Feel like i'm wasting my words when i know it doesn't seem like i can be with you anymore..
I don't think i can let you go just like that.
I admit . If i could change everything right now , i would make it better . This complication wouldn't even occur.
posted at [12:45 AM]
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Fate~
Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.okay.
Maybe i'm the one to be blame for this one.
Maybe i'm the main reason why all this happened.
I don't know why. No matter how rough the situation is, that feeling towards you are still stuck in my heart. Yeah , i still love you..... But i don't know about you .
One thing i know , i will never lose this feeling , ever.
and sometimes i do feel jealous too when seeing you with other guys :/
I know i've hurt you so much.
I didn't realize that i'm hurting you so badly.
I know , maybe soon our relationship will come to an end.
I know that you wanted to break up with me for few times already before this.
But why you didn't ?
Maybe you have your own reason why.
Now , i know that you are up to it again.
If it's fate , i'll accept it no matter how hard its going to be for me.
I'm here not to force you to stop doing it.
Because it's your decision.
I don't want to see you hurt anymore.
I don't want you to cry because of this anymore.
IF our relationship won't work out after this,
I just want these from you:
I don't want you to leave me or throw me far far away from your life. Please. I'd beg you.
I don't want to lose you as a friend or other.
I don't want you to hate me.
I know maybe after this , things will be very awkward.
If can , i just want us to be best friends or close friend or atleast just friends .
I want to keep talking to you. I want us to be normal when see each other.
I'm saying all this because i don't want us to keep hurting each other.
If this the best decision for you to make , then i'll accept it . I want to see you be happy and not emo because of this . Promise me , kay ?
And if you read this , i know MAYBE it's gonna affect your feeling.
Now, everything is in your hand. I'll accept it no matter what..
(Y)
posted at [4:39 PM]
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I'm Sorry.
now you saying like you regret ?I did nothing because i afraid that i will do smthg bad that going to affect us.
And it has been killing me when you didn't tell me what actually happen and suddenly we stop talking to each other .
For every single day i've been thinking that if i did smthg wrong and if it all my faults.
Maybe it is my faults , but you should have tell me early what happened so it wont affect my feeling so badly until i think that no one didn't even care about what i feel.
Give me chance. I'll try fix it back. Because i do want to be with you.
Please , i don't want to make it get worse.
I know maybe you would say whatever or dont care about all the thing i said.
But if you do regret, then its up to you.
I just don't want to lose you , that all.
posted at [12:00 AM]
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