Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.okay.
Maybe i'm the one to be blame for this one.
Maybe i'm the main reason why all this happened.
I don't know why. No matter how rough the situation is, that feeling towards you are still stuck in my heart. Yeah , i still love you..... But i don't know about you .
One thing i know , i will never lose this feeling , ever.
and sometimes i do feel jealous too when seeing you with other guys :/
I know i've hurt you so much.
I didn't realize that i'm hurting you so badly.
I know , maybe soon our relationship will come to an end.
I know that you wanted to break up with me for few times already before this.
But why you didn't ?
Maybe you have your own reason why.
Now , i know that you are up to it again.
If it's fate , i'll accept it no matter how hard its going to be for me.
I'm here not to force you to stop doing it.
Because it's your decision.
I don't want to see you hurt anymore.
I don't want you to cry because of this anymore.
IF our relationship won't work out after this,
I just want these from you:
I don't want you to leave me or throw me far far away from your life. Please. I'd beg you.
I don't want to lose you as a friend or other.
I don't want you to hate me.
I know maybe after this , things will be very awkward.
If can , i just want us to be best friends or close friend or atleast just friends .
I want to keep talking to you. I want us to be normal when see each other.
I'm saying all this because i don't want us to keep hurting each other.
If this the best decision for you to make , then i'll accept it . I want to see you be happy and not emo because of this . Promise me , kay ?
And if you read this , i know MAYBE it's gonna affect your feeling.
Now, everything is in your hand. I'll accept it no matter what..
(Y)